闲聊

Juz read one my friend's blog, which I haven't been contacting for a long time ever since the class chalet. After reading, it kind of cause my brain juice to blend awhile and thoughts are overflowing right now. My big theory or thesis on life is starting again but I ain't going to say anything on life. I know I'm naggy but hey, I'm juz naggy about some things. That's my character. I know the cons of my character and there are several to it. Trying to change however, sometimes, it juz came back unknowingly.

I admit that I'm tactful, and may be tactful at the wrong times. However, I do think about things before saying. It's juz that when my mind is in a rage or in total confusion, I may juz blabber something hurtful. Sorry to the people that I've said hurtful things to you. Pls do correct me or tell me if I have say something bad.

Another con of my character is my nagginess. Alot of people have told me that I'm naggy. I know that and I know alot of people dun like me to be naggy. However, my mind is made in a weird and strange way that caused my thoughts and experience to be formulated in a strange way. I've seen alot of happenings around me and experienced a few things that may caused me to think more about certain things. Because of that, when I see my friends (no pointing any directions to any one) doing something that I may have done it before (something = bad in this case), I'll try to them about it. If they are not able to listen for the first time, I may repeat several times till they really get sick of it. Sorry for my nagginess.

Pls do understand me that I'm not born smart. I worked hard to achieve what my results. If I'm smart, I would have now be in University and would not have so much worries to my parents. If I'm smart, I wouldn't have always be compared to my elder bro (who's really smart) or people aorund me. I have always been compared ever since young, and intellectually, I'm not smart. This always results that I have to work double hard in order to achieve. So pls, I do not want to be said things like "Aiya, you so smart, no need study also can pass", or "You confirm can score high grades la...no need so pia". I'm not smart!