Singying and I were having a conversation when we were having our dinner just now. She felt the same what I'm feeling now, last year, but mine is x times worse than hers. She took around 4-5 months to recover. How long do I take to recover?
In fact, ever since last sem film project, in which my confidence was smacked all the way down, it has not recovered and there's entirely no break for me to recover. Mentally, I wasn't stable enough, and of course, emotionally. People say I'm strong as I haven't broke down, literally in tears, but they do not know. Deep down inside, mentally, it's been struck over and over again till sometimes, I'm not sure what I should feel. Numb.
It's not that I have not break down literally, it's just that not in front of everyone. With ownself, and some close friends, I did....
The feelings I'm having now... I dunno what it is.... anymore....
I'm really not sure if I'll ever recover. Maybe I will... But when?
All I can do now is to divert attention to other stuff... Homework, assignments, projects....
Pls do forgive me if during this period, I can't react to you instantaneously, for my brain can't react very fast. Am in Pentium 1 now... slow reaction..
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Haiyo.... *sayang* sayang*
You know, you must learn how to release stress... that temporary solution will help you to make you feel better and refreshed. Mental stress and tiredness is the worst thing that can happen my dear... cos it will affect your work tremendously... you need concentration lor... do you know how to release that? =S-- Jiamin
The best way is to get out of hall, relax at home or just get out and breath fresh air. However, now I can't do it, there's only music that soothes my feelings. Actually it's not really stress, but some other stuff that is unable to describe...
I know it'll affect my work, which I'm trying my best not to, but concentration sometimes doesn't really help... time is a factor..
Sigh, have you talked to anyone about your problem yet?
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